Have you ever felt small? Maybe you’ve felt small in faith – like Peter. Or in stature – like Zacchaeus. Perhaps you feel small in ability – like Moses or Esther. Maybe you’ve been made to feel small, by comparison – like David.
I’ve felt indescribably small in many ways — as a mom, a wife, a woman, and a follower of Christ.
If I shoo my kids to bed and rush through bedtime prayers because seriously, it’s 8:15 and my nerves were shot by 8:01. Small mom.
When my husband comes home from a 13-hour workday and, though I managed to shower, I’m still in the same pajamas. Small wife.
Attending social functions and listening to other moms talk about their intriguing jobs and trying to juggle work, kids and a home – all while sporting spectacular wardrobes and gorgeously manicured nails. My goodness I admire women who work outside the home. And I love that God has blessed me with the chance to stay home. But, wrong as it is, sometimes I feel small. Small woman. At least I wasn’t wearing pjs.
If all of those don’t weigh my ego down enough, I can always pile on my inadequacies as a Christ-follower. Like when I lost my cool with my son a few months back and exclaimed the “queen mother of dirty words.” No, not the one Ralphie exclaimed. The queen mother of Christian dirty words. Yep, that word. Capital G, little o, little d ~ followed by another D-word. I felt like a “speck” that day. A small speck in God’s eyes.
What is a “speck”? I’ll explain in a minute.
Some of the worst guilt I’ve experienced came not from measuring myself against the world – but in the light of God’s eyes.
When I feel like I’m not who God wants me to be, I feel so very small.
But then, I remember Peter, Zacchaeus, Moses, Esther, David – and so many others. So many small and imperfect people whom God called not only His chosen, but His beloved. Each had character flaws, shortcomings, and sins too numerous to count. In their own eyes, and in the eyes of others, they simply weren’t up to the task of representing such a very big God. They were much too small.
The title of this post comes from the Dr. Seuss novel, Horton Hears a Who! The main character of the story, an elephant named Horton, discovers that a tiny “speck” of dust on a flower is really an entire world. Horton makes it his mission to protect the people on the speck, because others in Horton’s world don’t believe they exist. Horton stands up to those who want to destroy the flower (and thus, all those who live on the speck of dust inside the flower), chanting “a person’s a person – no matter how small.” It’s a cute story, and a cuter movie – and some say it compares the smallness of humanity to the greatness of God. But here is another, more complete truth:
God sees us as we are – as we have been – and as we will be through Him!
God saw how great Peter’s “little faith” would be, as soon as he started putting more faith in the Lord than his circumstances. Peter needed to confess his weaknesses and trust in the Lord’s strength. And when He did, He became the great rock upon which the Lord built His church!
God saw Zacchaeus before he climbed way up in that tree. And because Zacchaeus pursued the Lord despite the obstacles in his way, the Lord forgave his sins and blessed him greatly. Don’t be afraid to approach the Lord because of guilt or circumstances!
For Moses and Esther, God didn’t consider their inabilities – because all things are possible through His perfect power and will. All they had to do was to surrender their doubts and fears, and believe! When they did, God made miracles happen!
As for David – considered the least likely by nearly everyone else – God saw a great king, through whom the King of Kings would come. All David had to do was to stop listening to the doubts and criticisms of others, and believe the Lord of Hosts was bigger than giants. Because David called upon the Lord in his times of trouble, God delivered him – eventually even sending the Deliverer of the whole world through David’s family!
So – what does God see in you? I promise – it’s not based upon your faith, your circumstances, your inability, or what everyone else thinks of you. God sees His beloved creation ~ named You. And God sees great things in you!
Here are some verses to remind you who you are in Christ! You’re more than a speck. So much more!
Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God. 2 Corinthians 3:5 @via rldevotions
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13
I will give up whole nations to save your life, because you are precious to me and because I love you and give you honor. Do not be afraid – I am with you! Isaiah 43:4-5
Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7
For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:28-29