As I sit here trying to type this blog post, my son is asking how long oatmeal cooks in the microwave, my daughter wants me to see how she can spin two fidget spinners at once, my husband is texting that he’s on his way home (which translates into “is there any food to eat?”), there are papers to file, people to call, a budget to write, and oh yeah, I’m recovering from a stomach bug.
Did you run out of breath trying to read that run-on sentence? That’s a bit how I feel — out of breath.
I’m overwhelmed by a struggle to juggle.
I just read a blog post by Suzie Eller about learning to rest in the work you’ve been called to do. Sometimes, I feel like I’ve been called to do far too much. In fact, my life feels more like a circus than a calling.
Imagine a juggler (me) standing in the middle of a circus tent (my life), attempting to juggle an infinite number of enormous juggling pins (kids, husband, home, writing, editing). All the while, I’m sweating rubber bullets under the heat of the glaring spotlight (God).
How sad is that? But I’m being honest. That’s how I feel at this moment. And I realize it’s wrong.
Our Heavenly Father is not a glaring spotlight. His light is gentle — shining peace, love, and grace. The blessings He pours into our lives are meant to bless us, not to harm or overwhelm us.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 NIV
So what do we do when our lives feel overwhelming? If we lay our hands down, won’t all the people and things depending on our “capable” hands come crashing down?
No, they won’t. They won’t because they don’t belong to us, but to God.
Don’t get me wrong. We can’t simply lay down our hands and do nothing. God purposed our hands. He made them to work and serve. But notice, He didn’t give us ten arms and hands. He gave us only two. God knew we would try to take on more than we could handle.
We weren’t meant to multi-task. Think of Jesus. He worked intentionally. He knew where He was going, and gave as was necessary. His focus was not the crowds, but the one person who needed Him most, or the one task they all needed most. And when Jesus needed rest, He removed Himself from the pressures to perform, and went to be alone with the Father.
There will always be dishes to wash, babies to feed, noses to wipe, and a million other tasks to complete.
Let God show you where you are needed most, and let Him strengthen your hands for each task as it comes. Most importantly, let’s have a thankful perspective.
Instead of seeing chaos around me, I need to see the beautiful busyness of a full life. Instead of seeing myself as the juggler of my life, I need to put it (and everything and everyone) into God’s hands. Instead of viewing His light as a glaring spotlight on my performance, I need to bask in the warmth of His complete acceptance and love for me.
Life can sometimes feel like a circus, so let’s relax a little and enjoy the show!