Can I be honest? I’m struggling and ashamed.
I’m struggling to be a patient mom, an affectionate wife, a considerate friend, a faithful follower. I’m struggling to be a million things I’m not — not now anyway.
A deep loneliness is bothering my soul, and I haven’t understood why.
Some things are obvious. I need to let go of that hurt thing. I need to forgive myself for that failure thing. I need to put things into perspective. I need to start doing that one thing I’ve been neglecting for too long.
We’ve been given an amazing gift — to fellowship directly with God. The Israelites would stand in awe! For them, being in the presence of God, let alone being indwelled by His Holy Spirit, was unimaginable. They were too sinful. He was too holy. They were too unworthy. He was too glorified.
Even so, God made a way for them — at least partially. The chosen high priest was allowed a certain time to enter the Holy of Holies. There, he met with the presence of God to offer prayers for his own forgiveness and cleansing and for that of the people.
Do we realize what a gift we’ve been given with Jesus?
The veil is torn!
All who wear the name of Jesus are washed clean in the sight of God. The sin of our humanity is covered by the life Jesus surrendered as a perfect sacrifice. God will never sacrifice His holiness or glory. He is God! But what He did sacrifice was the life of the Son of Man — the Son of God — the Word of God born in the flesh.
Jesus laid down His blameless, unblemished life to cover the sin in ours. And now we have a High Priest that doesn’t enter with sin of his own, but who is risen, blameless, and standing victorious at the throne. His victory is ours!
In a moment of fellowship today, God reminded me that I don’t need to be ashamed of all the ways I’m not measuring up. That’s what’s really bothering my heart. I’ve hesitated to approach God because I feel too ashamed.
I’m ashamed for realizing how far I fall short of the glory of God, and how unworthy I am of His grace and mercy. But that’s the beautiful gift of Jesus.
God doesn’t want to be separated from us. He is holy. He is glorified. He is Almighty and will not be in the presence of sin. But the name of Jesus covers our sin. The name of Jesus washes us clean. The name of Jesus tears the veil and gives us access to the throne of grace and forgiveness.
I’m so thankful for the beautiful gift of Jesus. I’m going to take time to fellowship with Him and I pray you will too.
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. (Hebrews 4:14-16, NIV)”